Disabled And Mentally Ill

  Good morning Jesus, Why could I not sleep last night? I  do not understand,  I am sorry if I have angered you somehow. I am sorry that I went back on my word on going on that Talkie website, please forgive me father, help me to guard my eyes and ears on what I watch and listen too, help me to hate what you hate and love what you love. Father I pray for my dear friend Charloitte, Al's ex wife, I pray for complete and total healing for her, Iv can only imagine what it is like nothout the ability to speak clearly or have impared memory. Thank you for giving me both the ability to speak well, and a very good memory. I would also like to wish my dad a happy Heavenly 70th birthday please tell the old man that his family still thinks of him every day and loves him very much! Lord thank you for us being able to talk like this, I am sorry that I don't mke time with you as much as I use to ( hardly ever if I am being honest) and I want to change that. You are very important to me...

  For those of you that are reading these words, if you want to talk to Jesus all you need to do is talk, just like you would talk to your friends; he hears you! Believe me, yes, there are apps like text with Jesus, stay away from those; he is there in your midst. Believe me, even if you think he cannot hear you, I promise that He is there. He sends His angels to watch over you as you sleep; He sends angels to watch over you during the day as well.  I have felt the flames of hell, I have seen the torment that goes on there, I praise God every day that He did not allow me to remain there, I praise God every day that I knoe that I am His! He could have easily kept me there, and i know that i deserve to be there but by the grace of His love that I know that I will be with Him on the last day of my last breath on this earth.  I continue to ask for His complete 100 percent healing from my cancer.  I know that  God still has a lot to do in my heart before i can be reu...

You know the best thing about my cancer battle is that death cannot touch me, because I am the daughter of the King of Heaven, I know Jesus loves me just as I am, he is the one that created me. I have tried so hard to please him, when I know that he just wants me to be myself, I pray that he will continue to let me just make my heart clean Please just help me not to try so hard and understand, that you love me as i am

  I am so grateful that Brock made himself available to me,be becausenot a lot of Possitive Support Service people would but I am pretty sure that there are those times that I need to reach out to someone. Have I thought about hurting myself in the last few months? If you want me to be honest, sort of. I don't mean kill myself, I am not that stupid, but there have been times that I have considered harming myself physically and it at times like that that I realize that the best thing for me to do is blog, pray, or talk to a friend. Have any of you gone through something like that? killing yourself is long term salutution to a temporary problem. Please seek out help for problems that you are dealing with and remember God loves you so do I!

  For over 40 years I have really been blessed to be a child of God, my cancer battle has brought me closer to Him. I am always amazed that He loves me enough to do all of the awesome things that He has done for me. One thing that  I praise Him for the complete and total healing from my cancer. Cheryl   I thought they said you could never be cured just treated? Well the only oncologist I care about is my creator, He can and  I believe it will happen 100 percent.  I am so glad to know that  I am the child of someone that  loves me that much.   I am in desperate need of a father that I can be best friends with.

Yesterday it finally happened! I snapped which is something I honestly was hoping never going to happen again but it did. Yesterday, my legal guardian Brandeev came over to talk about the fact that I am getting a new wheelchair because I am "too fat" for the chair I am in now.  Being a Christian I know that God will be their final judge so as far as I am concerned that is all them. The fact that I am a believer helps me keep my calm. Do I get angry easily? Well, I try not to as easily as I use to. Sometimes life can be very difficult when people are talking trash to you. While it is important to journal, and do other coping skills it is more important to talk to God every day!'

You will have to deal with disrespectful people everywhere, all the time I am sorry to say that is a part of life. Living in as many group homes as I have in the 20 years since I left my mother and father's home in Andover, Minnesota I can guarantee you that a lot of staff are assholes,  that is just how they are, now how you as an individual choose to deal with them is up to you. I want you to understand that you cannot control their attitude toward you, but you absolutely should control yours. Let me give you an example OK earlier tonight I was supposed to have a shower but  she wanted to have me stay in bed all day on the days that I have showers I  said absolutely not! I told her that I had to have a life that they were not going to be manipulating me into doing that. Right away I told my PSS Positive Supporit person, and we were able to talk and communicate and find a way for me to continue to take the high road so that I  do not loose my temper, and stoop to th...

  Recently I was told, that I a good writer which makes me very happy. I get joy out of wrighting for you all, and I hope that my words help at least one of you. get encouragement for my wrom my words. I am so tired this morning.  Violet, and Mercy O and Peter are working tonight.