At A Loss For Words

 For those of you that are reading these words, if you want to talk to Jesus all you need to do is talk, just like you would talk to your friends; he hears you! Believe me, yes, there are apps like text with Jesus, stay away from those; he is there in your midst. Believe me, even if you think he cannot hear you, I promise that He is there. He sends His angels to watch over you as you sleep; He sends angels to watch over you during the day as well. 

I have felt the flames of hell, I have seen the torment that goes on there, I praise God every day that He did not allow me to remain there, I praise God every day that I knoe that I am His! He could have easily kept me there, and i know that i deserve to be there but by the grace of His love that I know that I will be with Him on the last day of my last breath on this earth. 

I continue to ask for His complete 100 percent healing from my cancer. 


I know that  God still has a lot to do in my heart before i can be reunited with God like stop losing my temper with my staff, and swearing at them like i do, which is embarassing to me, as well as my relationship are getting better but not the way we should be, because I know that you kno11111111111111111111w want us to be closer too. Also i know that my dad would want us to be.

One of the biggest things that i know that i have to let go of is how frustrated i am that Steven and i are not married yet, i need to give that to you, so here Lord, i give it to you i am laying it at the foot of the cross you can deal with it!

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