Disabled And Mentally Ill

  Well,  I leave for camp on Monday. Can it really be here already? Everyone says that I get too frustrated too easily, what they don't realize is that the staff has a lot to do with the reason that I get angry so easily. I have to be quite honest with you, though, when I try to tell them that they are the reason that I am frustrated, they just pass me off, they don't listen. Before I forget to tell you guys, today I went to see my positive support person in Mendota Heights for an intake, and I met my new PSP, whose name was Brock. When we were talking, he was on Zoom so he could be part of the process. Caitlyn started to push me to my pissed off point, but I stayed calm and did not blow up at her, which, honestly, I felt like doing while we were there, but I kept my composure. Lately most annoying person to me is Caitlyn, I love her alright you guys really I do, but it is very frustrating for me when I am trying to talk to her and she does not listen. A lot of people have bee...

  Since I have moved in here I have met and become friends with a lot of clients and staff that believe in God. My roommate John is by far just an absolute sweetheart! I adore Jon, he makes life very cheerful. His mom Theressa and I have gotten to be really good friends, I let her talk to me when she gets stressed out, I never let her trash the staff  around me because that's not alright with me. We pray with one another and for one another. I am looking for a new place to live, and I know when I leave that will be tough for her and Jon but I have to do what is best for me no one else.

  A lot has happend to me over the last 2 1/2 years, and I am going to tell you this being diagnosed with breast cancer when I was 38 years old, and the fact that I have had to deal with so many other health things. God has always kept every promise that he has ever made to me and I know he will continue to do so. I am very lucky to be raised by the Christian mom that I was. because that way I am going to be a lot stronger emotionally, spiritually, and mentally. Next Monday I go to camp courage which is going to be very fun for me. Are you kidding? 6 days away from John talking all night? How peaceful will that be? Tonight Lydia is working, and I really enjoy it. Hope she can deal with Jon because I need some sleep, but to be honest with you I am not tired right now.

  Have you ever looked at yourself and wish I wish I was born this way, or I wish I was born that way? If you are sitting there saying, that the thought has not ever crossed your mind well I would say congratulations for being the first person that is talking out their butt and flat out lying.  How do I know? Because the thought has crossed my mind several times, I wish that I would have been born like Emily and Daniel, but the thing is that when it comes down to it that I am lucky to be born the way I was. Yes it has been difficult to deal with Cerebral palsy, Epilepsy, and Cancer are very hard but I was created perfectly in God's eyes. For those of you reading this that are struggling with the if's and what might have been part of life remember that you have to understand that you are perfect in his eyes. You are probably thinking Cheryl you don't understand I just lost the ability to stand up even though I aam in a chair. Let me stop you right there, I understand more th...

  For several years I have been asking Steven when we were going to get married, and he would give me the same answer Cheryl, I will marry you in God's timing, and I use to get so annoyed but one night I heard God tell me, Cheryl put me first, you will marry him in my timing.  For those of you reading this that are waiting for a thing that you have asked God for, and if he is not allowing it to happen at this exact moment, that just means that it is not in his timeline. When he allows it to happen it will happen. Now people ask Steven and I when we are getting married and we both say in God's time

Yesterday I went to see my oncologist, and we discussed our continued cancer treatment. She asked me if I wanted to continue my treatment and I said yes I have a lot to live for. i live to minister for God, he continues to do work in me. There has been times that I slip up and swear which I try not to do. i l know that with God's continued help that is something that I can conquer, and that I know that there are times that he may feel as though I am taking his love and mercy for granted, and I know that it is by his grace that I am still alive, and I see his continued grace in helping me feel like I am not worthy enough to be called his daughter. I could not still be alive my cancer would have taken my life it was not for you Jesus. Please help me keep remember that you do find me worthy enough to be your daughter.  One of the reasons that I have questioned if I am worthy or not is because I am wheelchair bound, I have asked you so many times over the years to deliver me from my ep...

  Always rememberv that anytime that you think of anything negative,v whether it is harming yourself, or verbally harming someone else it is not worth it, take all those feelings and give them to God. He loves you and wants what is best for you. At one point in my life I would pop off quite often, but I do not do that as much unless a disrespectful comment is made about my family, my friends, or Steven, and even then I try to keep my cool.

  Tomorrow afternoon I will be meeting with my care team to talk about relocation, and  Caitlyn constantly mouthing off about the fact that  my wheelchair cannot go up and down hills when the only time my chair has a problem with that is if my wheelchair has not been when it has not been fully charged.  Sometimes there are days that Caitlyn honestly makes me feel like my house manager at Loges made me feel, and I moved here to get away from that.  The biggest plus dates for me is when my mom comes over because at least then I can talk to someone who doesn't talk down to me. i very much want to be able to be able to walk at least part way down the aisle and that is going to be kind of difficult when Caitlyn has done absolutely nothing to get me involved with physical or occupational therapy. I want to get involved in occupational theraptional therapy for my left hand, as well as for them to teach me how to cook.  These are things that could be easily arrange...

  I am looking forward to my future when my team finds me a newgrewp home. God will help me cope with change. He helped me deal with the change with the move from Loges to here. For some rice crispy saken reason I was sad to leave Loges don't ask me why but I was. Honestly I am so glad that I did.

  I was re-diagnosed with stage 4 cancer on February 8th of 2024 and ever since then my chemo-therapy. has been kicking me in the butt lately I got to see Jessica and Dan today which was really nice. Sorry guys but my brain is not working I am tired. Good night

  Today was a great day for me, I was in my wheelchair for a few hours,v and was able to get to the gas station, and bev outside. Right now I am watching 24 hours to hell and back with Gordan Ramsey which is a good show. He goes to different restraunts and tries to save them from falling apart. I tried to call Al earlier but could not get in touch with him, so I just hung up because I don't like to leave voicemails. I did not fall asleep last night again until 3 this morning.

  Hello everyone, I want to tell you this much: I have quite a bit about mental illness.I am 40 years old, and I have dealt with depression since I was 17 years old. My grandparents passed away when I was in high school.  after I graduated I dealt with depression quite a bit because I was leaving my mom and dad. Did I want to? Of course I did, but I was still going to miss my family. Let me explain something, a lot of people think I hate my mom, but nothing could be further from the truth. As a young girl, I thought my mom was really judgemental but I realize now that she wasn't.  When I was in my mid 20's I had the hardest thing happen I started suffering from kidney stones, and bladder infections to the point that I ended up in the hospital a lot and it was very hard! Tonightv Violett is working overnight, and I am so glad. When she works overnight, she helps make our nights peaceful.